Thursday, March 21, 2013

Snow, snow, go away snow

White, everything I see is white. While it is better than mushy brown, it is still just white. Even our Alberta sun has been hiding. This change in weather isn't ant good for me physically or mentally. I have been trying to keep busy. Keep my mind from being alone and finding its dark corners.

I look around everyday for all that I am blessed to have in my life. I hide my physical pain behind my smile and enjoy my day. Otherwise what is the point. I rely on my afternoon nap; I require the help of my family at home, but together we make it work.

We sold our bearded dragon, Quizzy. I think it was hardest on me. I bonded with him the most. I just felt bad for him. I didn't have the time to play with him as much as he deserved. I was no longer able to let him walk freely around my craft room. There was too much he could get into and even worse, no vent cover. I've spent time locked in my mind. I can't even imagine what it would be like to be trapped in a cage.

My writing has taken a bit of a back burner. I really need to get on mailing it out to more places. I suppose I still take the rejection letters personally, more than I should. I have been thinking about getting an agent or even to start by self-publishing. However, I am not at that point yet. I know the novel is good enough to be picked up by a publisher. I truly believe that it will be. It only takes one yes to break into the market.

I have slowly been doing notes and writing small sections of my next novel. I haven't actually been focused enough to sit and plan it out in better detail. To actually start a good writing session.

My focus has been on my childproofing company. Things are coming together. I just need to believe that it will take off. I need to look at it as selling the company and not myself. I have the skills to market the company, so I just need to do it. I am also more than qualified to do the job.
I've got my business cards, my website, my insurance, my business licence. As of April 1st I will be as official as it gets.

The boys are doing well. We've all be very kindly sharing our germs with each other. Magoo has had the least of it. Even poor Hubby has had it badly this year. Doodles has his annual croupy cough. His team hockey team placed second at provincials. It was so wonderful that he had such a great team this year. For high school next year we've let him take hockey as one of his options. He was so excited. Magoo should be starting his rugby soon. It will be great to see him more active. I swear in the winter he hibernates.

As for me, white. Everywhere I look is white.

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