Whishing away the winter blues

And so here we are - the beginning of October. For many it is the start of the holiday season, for me it means welcoming the Winter Blues - the inability to sleep, the easy tears, the irritability and the withdrawal. I suppose that I can take comfort in knowing that it will come and it remains a constent in my life. This year I thought I could wish it away and simply ignore the signs - if only it were that easy.

I think the worst part is the lack of sleep. I am awake overthinking everything. My brain is in constent chatter. Why won't it shut-up? Add to that the nagging throughout the day - you'll fail, who are you kidding, they're talking about you...and forever trying to remind myself that those thoughts are false.

I see it in hubby too. He is more tired and more withdrawn in the winter. Other people have commented on that, so I know that it isn't just me. I've often wondered if he feeds off my lack of energy. I know that it has an impact. He gets stuck doing so much more around the house and he rarely complains. I truly am blessed. Because he does so much for me and the boys, I often think I am letting him down - I want so desperatly to do well for him to succeed in my company - but I mean who am I kidding. What do I know about running a home sales business. All I've accomplished so far is going over budget. Min orders and quantities are too much - do I narrow down what I offer? I had a hard enough time getting it down as it was. AHHHH!