Groundhog Day - Do Over

I've often wondered what it would be like to go back and change the past - undo certain things and change regrets. Maybe even have a day to just do it all and have none of it matter. However, I know that will all of that comes a price. Everything has a consequence. Every action has a reaction - no matter the road we choose there will be consequences because no matter how hard we try to run, there they are. The hardest is no knowing which of the consequences you want or can live with.

This is my problem - I live in a continual loop. I am looking two steps forward and three steps behind. I have been trying so hard to live in the hear and now, but it scares me. I wonder though which scares me more - yesterday, today or tomorrow...one quickly blends into the other.

The masks, the games...it all tries to creep back into my life. I am so tired. Everything seems to be getting to me right now. I even cry at comedies right now. UG!!!

What am I doing? Who am I doing it for? Is this my life or a dream? UG!!!

Okay, to do list:
Get back to the gym.
Watch what I eat.

Take things as they come and go from there. There are no do-overs. Life isn't about going backwards. Changing regrets would change other things. I have to refind my focus. I have to stay on track. UG!!!

Thank you to overone who keeps leaving me comments. I enjoy reading them. I'm sorry that I don't answer on them. I do have a SADS lamp, and I try to use it every day. I have to admit though I find it hard. I tend to get bad headaches from it.

Somethimes I think that we are all just wearing masks. It is how the we are wired to work. The difference is that some of us are more aware of it than others.