Life in small chunks

I just finished teaching another course tonight. I really enjoy teaching the kids. Today I also did a presentation at my boys' school. It was fun. I love being around the kids. I just wish that I knew how to get into more schools and how to teach more courses. I keep saying this is where I will focus my energy, but when will I actually do it? I always have some excuse.

When I was a little girl, I used to create this sort of fantasy world. I think most of us did that as kids, but in mine things didn't always end in happily ever after. Much like now, I felt like things needed to be earned. If I did something right, then something good would happen in return. Not like karma, but like a secret wish of sorts. As I got older, I realized that it wasn't enough to just wish for things, I learnt that they didn't always come true; in fact, they rarely do. Where did that leave me?

Lost I suppose. To many ideas, to much energy and a lack of confidence and focus.

Here is what I do know:
I have a few courses left to hopefully teach (if enough people register)
I am still doing ROE in three classes
I will be working with this one class at the boys' school a few more times
I am finishing off my last course towards my degree - will be done at the end of June
I am still working lunch two-three days a week
I may be working one-on-one with a student on dealing with emotions
I may be presenting to a few classes during mental health week in May

So why does there have to be more? Why isn't that enough?

I look at my little to-do list in life and I see
Publish a book
Run a business
See the world

The business is being done on more of a consultant basis, but it is still a business.
The book is under development and I have a few picture books that just need to be mailed of.
As for seeing the world, I've been lucky enough to see many places and for now maybe movies and the internet is how I will have to see the rest.

Break things down into small chunks and I suppose they are manageable. It is how you look at things.

Right here, right now...I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend... what else could I ask for?