One Word

I've had so much to write, or so much that I've thought about writing since last time; yet somehow time always seems to pass me by. I suppose that it's a good thing that I've been keeping busy. I am finding there is a nice balance in my life now. I have things to do and time to myself. I am no longer afraid to be left with my own thoughts. The moment that something from my past enters my mind, I try to figure out what it is telling me in the moment. I look for where it fits into things and I become fully aware of my feelings. If something negative tries to enter my thoughts, I look at how to rephrase it. Time will make all of this easier and perhaps one day it will even become so natural that I won't notice 'm doing it.

I went to see my PDoc last week. We're keeping my meds as is. She would like me start using my SAD lamp again, which means getting it back from my friend. We are also watching as summer becomes fall to see if my Wellburtin will need to be upped as it has in the past. I am very excited about starting the program at LifeMark. It is specifically for fibromyalgia. I will be doing some physical activity, meeting with a dietician, participating in group activities and undergoing some biofeedback thing. I'd never heard of biofeedback before. I guess that it measures my bodily function, such as my blood pressure and heart rate. It is designed to help the person gain control over conscious of their unconscious mind physiological activities. My PDoc is interested in hearing about how it goes.

I'm also in the process of finishing a full body cleanse. I'm doing the Wild Rose Detox. I have to admit, I've had a small bit of a chocolate bar, a small spoon tip of vanilla strawberry sundae and a few scopes of chocolate sundae. For the most part though I have been doing really well.; besides a woman with her period needs chocolate. I know it's just an excuse. I was trying so hard not too, but I guess I gave in. I gave myself permission to say yes. I was telling Mr. Magoo that I couldn't eat something because of the cleanse. My PDoc told me to change the word to chose. Can life be that easy? Changing one word? I can't versus I chose not to...I wonder. I suppose it works with many things, it is all about reframing. Reframing thoughts and reconditioning behaviours.

I am totally addicted to the WII Fit. I am currently in the mountains, and I actually find myself missing it. The activities are so much fun. I can't believe how good it feels to start getting physically fit again. I hope to reach my goal of losing 20 pounds in three months. Last time I checked on Friday, I had already lost 9lbs. Nine pounds in three weeks. You can't complain with that.

We were suppose to start a no TV contest this month. Mr.Magoo and I have already failed. Being in the mountains with no toys isn't easy for him. I also like noise. I told Hubby that we should start next week. We'll see what he says when we get home. I guess that he and Doodles haven't watched a thing. Although, it really has only been a day. The plan is to go two weeks with no TV, then a week with no TV or video games (not counting the WII Fit, which is a sort of form of physical activity). The winner can chose any restaurant to go to as a family. I hope it will get the kids reading again. I also hope that it will give us all more family time and energy.

I've been listening to The Secret. I'm not actually enjoying it that much. I am finding it to be a bit full of it. I'm not sure what I think about this whole 'ask and you shall receive' stuff. I understand the idea of the law of attraction, but to apply it to everything. I don't know. I mean I've wanted things and believed them to be mine, but it never came to be. Why would things be different now, just because I listened to so silly audio-book.