Circle

The journey of life - opportunities of growth. No one knows this better than me. It's not linear, it's circular; often repeating what has already been done or relearning what you thought you already knew.

Learning a skill and mastering a skill are two very different things. Often I wonder if it is ever possible to master a skill at all.

I found myself in a moment of self-pity. A silly moment really; one that I shouldn't have let get to me, but it did, it does. As you may know it was my bday recently. Anyway it was also Mr.Magoo's. My family always tries to do a combines bday dinner of sorts. Anyway, we went out with Hubby's family the other day and my Bday wasn't even acknowledged. I even hinted at it a few times, and it was totaly brushed aside, all about Mr.Magoo. I agree that he needs a bigger fuss than me, that he is the kid, but how hard is it to say Happy Birthday and to include me even a little bit. My family always gets Hubby a gift, always recognizes it. Is it too much to ask for the same?

Sorry there goes the self pity bit. I guess that I just don't understand why after 13 years my relationship with them seems to be getting harder. There almost seems to be less respect. I guess that like so many things, I need to just let it be. I can't change what is out of my control.

My boys are doing really well. Mr. Magoo is in need of some more mommy time. We've had some kids staying with us, and he feels like an easy target for their teasing. He's also one of these kids who need time alone; they both are actually. Doodles is easier at hiding it though. I suppose that kids need to learn how to find the balance.

I've got mixed feelings about school starting up again soon. I feel like summer has just started. I want to have more of what we had while we were away. It was great, the four of us. I wish we had more of that. At home something always seems to get in the way. It's like the mood changes. Hubby always has to be doing something, I find that I have less energy and the kids want to play electronics. How do we keep the family group feeling alive?