Treatment

I was just wondering what type of treatments people use and how they find them working. On one of my disscussion boards, through facebook, we are talking about ECT. Some people say it is old school, while others say it is still valuable.

I have never gone through ECT, but know people who have. They all said that they would do it again.

I know that for me, I would try it if I needed to. I know what it is like to be unable to function and I see the effect that it has on those around me. I also know what it does to me.

People ask me all the time if I am worries about taking the medication. I know the risks and I know the possible side-effects, but yes, it is more than worth it. What good am I too anyone if I can't function? I would rather be able to life now than worry about tomorrow. The thing about it is, without my medications and other treatments, I am not living at all. The medications truly give me life.

Quick update

"You're only jealous because the voices don't talk to you."
It's odd, it doesn't feel like so long ago since I last blogged. I suppose that it's a good thing time if going so quickly.

Things have been moving along for me. I'm in a lot of pain physically, but am trying not to focus on it. I hope to get all of this worked out soon. My GP and PDoc disagree on my meds right now. However, life is what it is. The down side is that I've been spending a lot more time around the house than I'd like. I wish that I could say I was getting stuff done, but I feel really behind on everything. It's so hard to stay focused.

Mentally I have been doing okay. My meds seem to be working and I am glad to be using my SADS lamp again. I should be a bit more consistent with it though. I still find it hard to decided when I am over reacting to things or not, but seem to be more aware of my mood shifts and more able to step away.

My boys are doing well. Mr. Magoo is tiered of all the tests. I think he's starting to feel a bit singled out. He has to go to another one tomorrow. Hopefully we will get a few answers from that. He is also still doing some at school. It's hard for him to be pulled from class because he falls futher behind, yet they need to be done.

Doodles seems to a bit out of sorts lately. I wonder if the lack of light doesn't get to him a bit. I suppose it is possible.

Hubby seems to be doing okay. As with most winters, his energy is down, but this year his spirit seems to be a bit higher. I think it helps that things are giong well at work.

I sometimes wonder what I'm looking for in life. I mean where I am going. Then I stop and try to ask myself why it matters. Learning to live in the moment is turning out to be a good thing for me in many ways. Not only am I forced to deal with things as they come up, but I am no longer looking back or worrying about what lies ahead. The trick now is to train myself to stay in this mode consistently.